unmade – Urge

titled Urge
[From Proto-Italic *worgēō, from Proto-Indo-European *w(o)rǵʰ-eye-, from *werǵʰ- (“bind, squeeze”) (compare German würgen (“to strangle”), Lithuanian ver̃žti(“to string, tighten, constrict”), Russian (poetic) отверза́ть (otverzátʹ, “to open”, literally “to untie”), Polish otwierać (“to open”)), English worry, wring.
-ÚRG, -URGÍE elem. „creator, creație”. (< fr. -urge, -urgie, cf. gr. -ourgos, -ourgia)]

A room filled with crumpled tent tarps of 3 x 5/8 meters
Beneath the window a bed or mattress.
Onto which Lio is naked, dancing fear and distress and tension.
He screams.
From the tarps as in a wakeup, appears Gia a wondrous being from another universe.
She adapts to the world around her in weird perceptions and moods.
She has her palms and face covered in gold glitter.
He has his face covered in black. Muted.

After a time she recognizes Lio as a being and approaches him.
She touches him, they begin to meld, to exchange discoveries.
Each one speaking his own body language.
Step by step they begin to explore their sexuality. Their genitals. The sensations that takes them beyond.
Until he becomes erected and relaxed on the red bed. And she is above him, sliding in him. Dancing inside and outside him.
On her face, on his face too. Brief changes with the face of the other. A joining is happening. The gold face becomes black. A black face becomes golden. And clean. Flashes.
As she is dancing ontop of him. As we see her from behind in silhouette sliding up and down on his cock. Both black figures on the light outside. Both dancing weird as touching the air to push it away from them.
He comes up to her and begins to play with his black face to her golden face. Bit by bit, weirdly their faces become faces. And their faces become clean. They kiss with their eyes closed.
And they slowly open their eyes. And they see each other and they connect. Eye to eye. One eye. Dual eye. In which their bodies contorted, devoid of soul, chained one to another are circling in the green crumbled tarp [reverse motion]. Bodies in the eye. Until the bodies are eaten by the tarp and transforms all in a swamp landscape – Vacaresti Lake – and we can hear the nature too. It becomes all so very real.
And somewhere in a hidden corner on the ground, there is a small pile of gold. On which drips very slowly a few drops of blood.
END

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The Divine as another kind of perception.

Today I found something else
That divinity is nothing more than another way of being as a human. There is the animal form, the consciousness, and also the divine.
Religion has nothing to do with it because as divine there must be incorporated both animal and consciousness/conceptual/logic. Because divinity is a product of some weird things coming out of consciousness. Out of the abstract. Mixed with emotions, mixed with base drives. It is a very very amazing human discovery.
The problem is that throughout the ages we keep on saying that the divine is exterior and impersonal. Unreachable.
Although I respect and appreciate the long long religious tradition that purpose is to give a chance to people to go higher, not to forget this third form of being.
What is again very wondrous and amazing, is that the divine is so very little known to us humans that it will take thousands and thousands of years to discover and incorporate the divine in the human existence.
I wonder how consciousness came about into animals. Into the hominids. The human history is such a magical journey. And our next goal is incredibly amazing.

Bi

Men and women that had never let themselves be fucked
have no idea how to be with others. No feeling about togetherness.
Always afraid, controlling and aggressive.

Why Porn…

I recently tried to find some Investors in this project and of course I got in the question: but why porn? Why going so low when there are so many respectable ways of making money. Well the answer is ver complicated and is a cultural issue here, so….

The issue with porn was always, why porn. But for me was the exact opposite, why not porn? Of course not mainstream porn but anyway why hide sexuality, why being afraid of those emotions and ideas?
Of course the answers are simple and everywhere displayed, always ringing in the super-ego. That the collective assemble of accepted human beings do not accept it as something to be consumed in the open. NSFW. Not safe for work.
Porn or Art Porn was always a very important tool of liberation and getting closer to perception and reality, but as any other drug was band culturally.
Porn is not a tool of pleasure. Porn was always as you have seen a transformational tool.
There is a false belief that Porn affects sexual life and intimacy and empathy between people. But actually that is the opposite, because all activities that demystify some social norms and miths have always brought more good than bad to people. Don’t forget people stay distant with the exposure of Porn not because it is something wrong in it, nobody believe it so now days, but because of fear from the ones motivated to be against it.
There is so much cloudness about Porn but its simplicity an truth everybody knows but hides it away.
Porn is a great tool of simplifying things in this over complicated, fake world of human misunderstandings and neurosis.
Why Porn and not social human problems in complicated storylines? Because most of them are useless and made only out of the creators vanity and their sellable system.
Porn is so simple and remaining connected to it you can add all the important things to it and still remaining true.

Obscur interview

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Obscur is another film project that I wrote and start to look for way of making it, last year. It didn’t worked so well finding it difficult to produce it without a budget. Here bellow its a conversation I had with an actress that I sent the script. She loved it but told me that due to its sexually filled content it will be difficult to find people. So she sent me some question to make people better understand it and with it my artistic direction in this underground area of art and life.

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Doro H asked me some questions about Obscur, for a better understanding of the script. And I will post them here for all those interested in a little bit more about the project.

1. Could you sum up (in a few sentences) what “obscur” is about? / can you name the topics of this project?
* I can not sum up what is about because it doesn’t has a center theme. Or I try to not be conscious about, because I believe in the openness of the core of this kind of film.
Themes like belief in the breaking of ones past to changes the way one see things. Like the lack of consciousness and what can be in there. Like immortality and what effects that can have on a suicidal. Like spiritual duty. Like absolute desire.

3. Why do you want to tell this story?
This story is very important for me because it deals with one of my most fundamental fears and worries. With the mystery of what is behind consciousness. What is behind culture and order. How chaos works and why is all so beautifully crafted even without human control. Like in nature, like in space, like in weather. IN plants, in subatomic. Everywhere around us. There is no rule. No control. And everything is amazingly beautiful. And even whay this all seams ‘beautiful’ for us, people. What is this natural beauty and fascination.
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Evilness and the Freedom of Knowledge

I have this issue with Evilness, because I’ve always suspected of being something Fake. Something man-made. And something more nocive in our days than good.
I think that Evilness was created when the Church started its relentless purification through fire and sword against any other form of knowledge other then their own. Before the year 300 AD. And it developed throughout the middle ages up until the fall of Church’s Power as with the Protestant separation of entire kingdoms from under their influence.
It is known that always knowledge was protected. Protected by a border of secrecy, of initiation, of proven dedication and belief in the system at hand. And all this only due to our Human innate drives to superficiality and smallness of conduct. Lots and lots of people would love to know the things that give them the … of power and accomplishment. And for that people lie and deceit. So the necessity to prove thyself honest and willing to become according to the Knowledge doctrine. The same is in the Classical Religion as well, you have to be honest and believe in God and all His methods and workers and laws.

So Evilness is just a weapon of the Church to annihilate any other form of knowledge. And why this? I guess it started when they were in great danger from the Roman way of life. And as any system that begins in war and terror it will be strong, it will last long, but its so wrongly constructed in very extreme notions.
All War Time practices are antihuman and they don’t work well in Peaceful times.

The problem with Evilness today is that it was appropriated by the ones frustrated by the Church and used as real. So a Fakeness was believed true and used as truth. So what can be practiced for good, the rituals and practices of Evil-worshipers, for they are essentially benign, are used for violence and terror and what they do is only strengthening the idea of the Church.

What I find again very interesting, behind this Evilness, is the long chain of the freedom of knowledge. The freedom of Knowledge Systems. What is very interesting is that even if has been proven that people are more productive and comfortable in a diverse society and openness to diversity. And is a common sense unconscious belief that if you let people come up with their own solutions and their own ways of exploration and development, there are more chances to benefit all, and to have a better experience of life. There still is this Authority of the One almighty perfect system. Repeatable, dependable, all encompassing to all needs and happiness of all the people. It is even the idea that there is an almighty Type of person that will be perfect and genius in every moment of time and space. Which has been proven again and again it is just plain stupid.
Oneness has no conscious characteristic. You can say it doesn’t exist but there is more than existence out there.
So there is no Consciousness Perfection. No Self Awareness idyllic way. Because Consciousness is still soo soo young and so small in its possibility of perception and filtering of information. And every time someone try to create a big big social control system based on the Promise Land of a Perfect Consciousness know that they will first win, then proven wrong and miserably fail.

What is open and Powerful and proclaiming wonders has always been a lie.
What is hidden from view and lets you with great care and mistrust inside, knows more about truth than any Slogan and Service.

as Lao Tzu once said
“Those who know do not speak. Those who speak do not know.”

3rd short gay artporn script

I’ve just finished a 3rd short script. The 3rd gay artporn story.
It was #Rocco the story about the love between a man and his inner voice.
#Stone a magic trip of two guys that transform a stone in bread.
And now with #Routine about a sexdate between 2 str8 men, one at his first sex with a man, the other married and at his first love date.
It is so interesting how gay sex is much more magical than str8. I find that str8 sex is like a closed circle, that creates a world and that is the end of it. While gay sex is a continuum, an open state of things that can create and integrate in layers and layers of life and meaning.
Str8 is too too much complementary 😛

Do you?

Have you never found your passion?
Do you hate your job, feel it wastes your life?
Do you fear that what you feel as right is against all the ones around you?
Do you fear that being true to yourself will enstrange or even…. The ones that love you as you are. And helped you along your unless life?
Do you feel obligated to be what you are only to be thankful to the people that got you along until here?
Do you suffer for not being able to free yourself?
Do you hate yourself for not being able to be what they want?
Do you regret the path you are on?
Do you suffer for not being able to free yourself?
Do you trade your freedom for food and comfortable acceptance?
Are you trapped in a family that you were compelled to make?
Do you study for a career you know you have nothing in common with?
Have you always felt normality as being boring, or wrong, or made-up?
Do you still look for your place in the world?
Are you unsure o four desires and goals?
Would you want to change your life, your world, your rules and meanings?
Have you ever felt all things around you that seem fake – and that all the people would want to do something else but don’t have the courage?
Have you ever felt trapped in a life you can’t control?
Have you always done only the things requested from you?
Do you sacrifice your life for the desires and laws of others?
Did you lost touch with your body, with your feelings, with your peace of mind?
Do you want to live in the danger of truth. To start experiencing liberating feelings and perceptions. Do you want to shed all your layers of fear and mistrust. Do you want to stop politics and start living.
Come with us.

ArtPorn is the only lousy job I would do. It is much closer to Art then any other corporate job. Any other commercial job. Any other job that serves a social administrative purpose. Any other job that aids fakeness of normality.
Porn can be raw and lacking any politics. Porn can expand consciousness and open our way of perception. It plays and explores the relationships between people. With porn we can create new rituals, we can create an intimate system of life. And with its power over normal people we can make enough money to live and continues our search.

Money and the world of Bruillage

Only money help people.
All else are just lies.
Because money don’t retain identity and history. Once exchanged, they are new and shapeless and egoless, ready to receive their new identity.
Nothing else has the same quality.
Nothing else can brake karma as money do. Nothing else have the same unifying power.
All that can not desired to be sold or bought. Has no value.
Value is the commodity that is closest to the realities of the human soul.
Value is the direct link between the soul and one’s identity. Value’s emotional spectrum is the most intimate feeling. The feeling that either raises us. Or corrupts.
That is why purity, beauty, righteousness are proportional with the money amount.
That is why poverty is ruthless and in deep animalia.
Value without money, in our world, doesn’t exist. They are only fake prosthetics.
The art that I do, the silent fight I fight against this incredible fake power of the money, is useless.
We are deep sunk in the bruillage of the soul.
The only think I can do, is just fight with myself not to fall in the trap.
Just to remind that the only fight we can do is to learn to self-sacrifice, the world has never changed. Is too difficult. Too scary, too painful.
People helping people for a better life is a great great lie.
I want to help people break out of the need for a better life.
I want to help people understand that life in our world, in any of our human world and religions is a con.
Human cultural and genetic biases, reign supreme.
Happiness is just a fake necessity as any gadget these days is.
As Facebook.
About the essential necessities of a human life, soon, in another post.

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[Now I would love a simple thin dress]